[	mood	|	blah	]
[	music	|	cellar door	]

i really want a laptop.
what to save my money for?
-lap top
-rebel xt
-kiddo

im thinking maybe the kiddo should come first, hah. 
I have been wanting to write like crazy lately but i havent had the chance 
because writeing in my journal sometimes causes my hand to get tired and feels very inconvenient to me.
Typing is a lot faster and feels a lot better.
I miss her more and more everyday, feeling empty has been following me around now for a few days
and its making me kind of itch inside.
Saturday was heaven...for the most part. Got to spend some time with Danielle and Dustin.
Its been a while since ive been with the two at the same time, Dustin is great.
Danielle is better.
Green Mesquite did me justice but not for take out. Hah, suckers.
I have been hoping that this pregnancy gets better by the day, but it just makes me weak.
I have been pondering if this would be better to do on my own.
get what i mean?

I have borrowed Danielle's Canon for a few days and my tired ass self has yet 
to venture outside these doors after i get home from work and put it to use.
I try and motivate myself but i never get anywhere, excuses excuses.
i miss being around people im so comfortable with and who make me laugh..
ive been debating this whole week wether or not im gonna go to corpus christi
to visit my mal for a few days...
i dont have gas and im short for money and have to pay rent on the first
BUT
i havent taken my car out on a road trip yet and one to her would be the best one.
gas is SHIT.




i want it to rain sometime this week again...please?

[	mood	|	blah	]
[	music	|	japanther	]

 
                               
                                
 
 
                                           
               


more on another post...

i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
I HATE YOU

[	mood	|	touched	]
[	music	|	explosions	]

I kind of love her.
I kind of love her with all my life.
She is my best friend, my one, my other half.
She is the answer to all my questions.

You know when you meet a million people in your life but yet only one really sticks out to you?
That person to me would be danielle, is danielle.
I could have a million friends in all my time and she would still be that one friend to me that out did everyone.
She is everything ive ever asked for out of a friend, and i have never had to ask her for one of those things.
Its like having a horrible day and you take a deep breath whipe your face and telling yourself okay, im fine.
She is that deep breath of refreshing air.
Im so thankful to have a friend like her in my life, such a beautiful person.
She is the root to all goodness, she is what life has to offer.






_{i love you mamas.
you are my one.
i dont know what i would do without you.}

[	mood	|	crushed	]
[	music	|	lydia	]

( i know you better than you know your god damn self... )

[	mood	|	curious	]
[	music	|	lydia	]

( i am nothing without her... )